oh-love-hang-on

I feel my skull cracking with thoughts of you. My brain swelling, engorged beyond capacity. The pressure is unbearable. My eyes are popping out of my head, my mouth is agape, my ears are full of fluid. I can't hear a goddamned thing. Tunnel vision. I didn't expect that. You would think that there would be a single crack of the braincase, and it would be over. The crack of an egg, the contents into a frying pan. CRACK! –or something like that. And it's over, black. Curtains close, the show is over. Nope. Nothing like that. I'm unraveling. Convulsing on the floor. Oh, but the colors I see are so beautiful. The most vivid colors, the

Break down; And I'm falling, dying just to sleep. Reaching for your hand, only to find nothing; Could you cut me down faster? Could I hit the ground harder? Is it possible to love me, if I only push you farther? Would you take the time I never need, And throw it all away. Could you take the words I'll never say; And throw them in my face. "I swear this time, I won't shut down" I'm not lying, but not truthful. I can't say what I'm feeling; I care too much to break you. But my hopes are high this time, Don't let me slip, this time it's not pretend; I can't hold myself up anymore And you're not helping me stand. You tell me to